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    她拿着纸笔一路走一路写.九十年代的本子,卷一半在手里.那条路崎岖不堪,两边是将熟的小麦或稻田田野。
    写完后她开始向前快速奔跑,忽然看到一块收割完毕的田地里的他们.女子有着单眼皮,皮肤白净,瘦,温柔,恐怖,面目模糊的男子站在远处.
    她走过来对她说,我知道你的写作,你的文字,相信我.
    于是她们一起走到一在处所,分明像一座教堂,但又确定是她的家,因为那里有她的男人,在她走出去,走到田野里之前,这个男人曾送她一枚戒指,银面金边,两个S型花纹托起一颗小钻.她将戒指戴在左手无名指上,后又经过来回选择,最终戴在了右手的中指.他要求她将一枝长满红花绿叶的东西一起戴在手指,这样不可思议的事情,她居然同意,竟也是满心欢喜的.但是此刻她看到的自己的男人似乎并不是那个人,但身份并没有改变。她走过去看高台上插着的两三束不同的花,开的鲜艳无比,可是在她的偶然触碰下,一大朵绿色的花滚落下来,她冷眼看去,原来这里的花均是塑胶制品,掉下来的那朵是没有枝杆的。
    他对她没有感情,她只能看到真相,她有时想尽可能地嘲弄一下自己:看,你不是喜欢追求真相吗,这就是活生生的真,刀片划过肌肤的真,枯萎的无可救药的令人闭上嘴巴对语言弃权的真。眼睛看得到真相,你快乐吗?
    跟她一起回家的女子将一块大型铜材名片挂在她的卧室,他要求她走进去看,突然那女子冲上去,捉住她的两手将她拉开,她用力挣扎,女子恼怒起来,张开嘴巴向她的手背用力咬下去。恐惧向她袭来,无奈之下抬脚向她踢去。
    然后她踢到温暖的棉被,她惊醒了。
    身边有人问她怎么了,叫她不要怕。她只觉得冷汗直出,两眼炯炯,窗外有隐约的灯光照进来,她突然分不清身在何处,不是学校的集体宿舍,不是自己安全的卧室,也并不是某个温暖的所在,这只是一个特殊的处所。她反复想起那句“倾刻一声锣鼓歇,不知何处是家乡”,无法抑制地落下泪来。
    后来几天都试图去找一款与梦中一模一样的戒指,终究难以谋面。
    只不过也偶有清醒,终其一生,自己也是找不到的,这是一个不存在倾诉的世界,少有温暖。

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